Thursday, February 9, 2012

Saturday, February 9, 2002

Ten years ago on this day, I was most likely waking up next to my then husband.  A few months before, he had moved 2.5 hours from our hometown to take a new job.  As a teacher, I stayed behind to finish out the school year.  We planned to start trying to have a baby and we reasoned that it made more sense for me to stay on than switch mid-year. By staying, I'd get tenure, which would make it easier to get a new job when the time came, and paid maternity leave when the baby came, if everything went as planned, so I spent the week living with my parents and drove out to him each weekend.

Let me say that again...

I was living with my parents most of the week...

While we were trying to have a baby

I'd driven out to our little temporary apartment after school the evening before.  That same night we'd watched the Opening Ceremonies of the Salt Lake City Olympic Games. I'd blubbered and sniffled my way through the whole thing...even the commercials.  I've always been a Hallmark crier, but this was extreme even for me, prompting my ex to look at me and exclaim,

"You've GOT to be pregnant.  I mean you always cry, but this is a little much!"

"But it's just so special! Look, look at them all... their dreams are coming true!" I whimpered back.

"Even the little girl in the Folger's commercial?"

"But she missed her brother and now he's home!" I wailed.

You get the idea.

It was entirely possible he was correct.  It was, however, too soon to tell and technically the first month we had tried. We only saw each other on weekends, so odds of us "nailing it" on the first try were... well... slim.    

It would be another week before I would drive back to our apartment and realize that I had succeeded in my gargantuan efforts to distract myself and was actually a week late.  That next morning I would wake him up at 6 am, because I was so excited I could hardly sleep, by climbing on top of him ~over the covers, come on people, I'd just peed on a stick~ putting my nose to his and whispering, "Good Morning! Are you ready to be a Daddy?"

Ten years ago today when I woke up next to my then husband, there was a new life growing inside me.  

My life was about to change forever. 

I just didn't know it yet.



Mama’s Losin’ It

17 comments:

Heather said...

Oh my gosh. I love this! Aren't we so naive with that first one. We know our lives are going to change, but we really have no idea!

Ellen Stewart (aka Ellie/El/e/Mrs. Seaman) said...

Wonderfully told.

pegbur7 said...

Lovely story.

StardustSavannah said...

And life goes on- you got the important part right:)

DysFUNctional Mom said...

It's funny how we think our lives are going to go in one direction and then something happens that turns it all upside down........

SUPAHMAMA! said...

Beautiful post! Our first happened on the first try as well, we're both very lucky Mommy's to have not had to put in too much effort. Let's count our blessings. :) I know your life changed dramatically after this seeing as you're now "Single Mom," but this post is still fantastic.

Diane said...

I'll never forget the day I found out my life was about to change forever either. It was Halloween day, 1998, and we weren't trying. I think I walked around in a state of shock for about two weeks before I started getting excited!

Babes Mami said...

Mine was an insurance commercial where the boy was getting his license. Lots of commercials made me cry but that was the worst. OH and the sex in the city movie had come out and when she gets out of the limo and beats him with flowers...I just started hysterically bawling.

Andrea (ace1028) said...

This was beautiful. Thanks for sharing these moments with us, mama.

Stephanie said...

Love the way you told your story:)

Jane@flightplatformliving said...

ahhhhbut now i wantto knowthe rest of your story...will follow to find out more xxxxxxnice to visit from mama kats I' number 32. xx

Slamdunk said...

Fun read Single Mom. Now that little boy 10 yo is a big strong tackler.

Liz @ A Nut in a Nutshell said...

I find it kinda adorable that you were all emotional about the Olympics! It was really pretty cute how you told him.

Charlotte said...

Annnnnnnnnnnnnd, I have goosebumps. Awwww, what a special post. I just love the way you told this story (and how you told him). XOXO

Amy said...

I love your story. I remember very clearly when I found out I was pregnant. There was nothing sweet or romantic about that moment with my ex. It is wonderful that you have a great memory and story.

Emmy said...

Sometimes one time is all it takes. I didn't get too weepy during my pregnancies- at least not at the beginning of them.

Kay said...

Wow, that had to have been hard!! We lived with my folks for a while also, but holy cow, not while trying to conceive ;-)