Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Pour Your Heart Out: Burnt Out

Spent

That's how I feel right now.

So much so that I wasn't even sure I should bother to write this post.

I wasn't sure I could make it coherent.

It has been a LONG year.  

Even though there are only two days left, I'm just DONE.

That bothers me...That my job is such that I would be done before I'm done.

Truly, I have so many good things going on right now.
  • Exciting plans for the weekend
  • A trip to Disney at the end of the month
  • Things are going swimmingly with Lawn Boy
  • A whole summer ahead of me
But if you were to ask me how I was feeling, those are not the things I would tell you.

Instead I would tell you how tired I am... Overwhelmed... How I still have to pack up my whole classroom...How I'm worried about not having any employment lined up for the summer... How the stress has made me gain weight in the last month and a half... How I never got my children signed up for the summer camps they wanted to go to...How long this year has been.

I'm focusing on the negative.

And that is just the WRONG attitude to have.

Yet I have not been able to flip my perspective.

My glass, this week, is half-empty.

That is not the kind of person I am!

13 comments:

Blond Duck said...

I'm sorry. :(

Erin said...

The end of the school year and being a Mommy can do that to you! I understand. My school year ended 2 weeks ago. I'm finally recovering from it myself :)

Before I packed my room up I kept telling myself I was going to 'get things ready for next year' . . . with the amount of last minute items that were thrown our way that didn't get done!

Enjoy your summer and your trip to Disney. I'm jealous!

Ellen Stewart (aka Ellie/El/e/Mrs. Seaman) said...

I struggled with my class for the first part of the year, and then I turned them over to the student teacher. Being back with them for the past few weeks has been surprisingly fun, but today is the last day.

I didn't "click" with this group until recently, and there have been four who I would have to say I still haven't clicked with at all--and that makes me sad.

At the same time, I'm ready for summer, though I'm facing a lot of prep work for August.

All this without a trip to Disney!

Let yourself feel this way now, it's okay, and it will pass.

Diane said...

Most all of us feel this way from time to time. Hang in there! This too shall pass...

Cathy said...

I really feel for you. We have another 2 months of school here and I already feel that way.

Julie said...

I can totally understand your feelings except that I'm a newly married girl and not a mommy. But I am a teacher who has no employment this summer and currently no employment for the fall and it just reminds me of the same feelings you are having.

Try to focus on something fun, like your Disney trip (which we went on in March and it was a happy place) and know that things will work out the way they are supposed to. I keep telling myself that.

(stopping by from Shell's PYHO)

Mimi B said...

I'm sorry you're having a week. blah I'm not that person either, but I've been having those days more lately. Not sure why, but I'm seriously NOT liking it! I hope after school is out and you have time to decompress you'll be able to perk up!! =)

Emmy said...

So sorry :( It is so easy to get in that place where it is easy to see just the negative. I hope once summer starts that you can get a rest and see the good again.

Tiffany said...

First off, I'm sending you big, big virtual hugs my friend. You deserve it. Second, we are not perfect and fall short sometimes. It's okay, don't beat yourself up.

Enjoy the summer, take time. It will all work out, whatever "it" is.

JDaniel4's Mom said...

I am sorry you are having to go through this. I hope wonderful activities for kids and summer job will come to your family soon.

Shell said...

I think it's totally normal to feel that way at the end of a school year! It all snowballs and feels like a lot!

Hopefully you'll feel more relaxed soon!

Babes Mami said...

Sometimes we all have these moments!

Mrs4444 said...

Thank God for summer break!!!!!