While I was being all "glass half empty" a few weeks back, I sort of mentioned that things were going swimmingly with Lawn Boy. I've been going slow...well, trying to anyway; I think he'd like things to move along...
I've always joked that I just needed someone to show up at the door a few times a week after the kids went to bed and I kind of have that, *blushes* because when you are a single mom with full physical custody, you have your kids ALL.THE.TIME and hiring a babysitter gets expensive. I do make time to go out, but if he wants to see me more often than that, and he does, that is when I have time.
I do, however, have one conundrum... seeing each other in daylight hours... it's a lot harder to keep the kids out of it this time around, than it was with Cute Boy, who lived so far away. Lawn Boy has his own children every other weekend and he likes for us to do things together and they all do get along well ~With five kids between the ages of 6 and 9, you know we look like crazy people. Come on, you know you'd be trying to figure out that math!~ so it is nice. He's also wanting to come over on the weekends he doesn't have the kids and do things like mow the lawn, which I truly do need done. It's hard to say no.
This means my kids see him a whole lot more than his kids see me.
I won't even pretend I'm not freaking.
I DO NOT want my kids getting attached. It was the one thing I got right last time ~okay, not the ONE thing, but its the most important thing~ and even still, my children will ask about Cute Boy every so often. I think, because the few times they did meet him, we had fun and it was a big adventure.
Lawn Boy respects my feelings, but I don't think he truly understands. I don't think a lot of people do, because I'm a little extreme about it. He thinks this is wonderful and he's all in and I think I've been down this road before, it's still early days and I'd like to give it some time to see if it sticks before I go playing family ~not that I'm not hoping it heads that way, not that it doesn't feel like it will~ I'd just like to exercise a little caution!
My kids do not remember having their dad and I live together. Other than relatives and really close family friends, they have never had a man come over and do "manly" things. What to many children would probably just be "things a guy does," to mine is a Very Big Deal ~ or at least it's not normal.
The kids' radar is up. He has come to a few functions with us, although we never drive together and we always meet there. I had him meet us with a big group at the beach a few weekends ago. We've gone to the pool with him and his kids and of course, I had them over for dinner last weekend.
As we got into the car after one such visit, The Girl said, "Mamma! Lawn Boy is nice. We should take him more places with us, like when we went to the beach!"
What do you think? Am I overreacting?