I was having a conversation with Lawn Boy recently and he was trying to voice some completely valid feelings. I wasn't taking it well and the left ~or is it right?~ side of my brain knew I was out of line, but I couldn't seem to help myself.
Then he said a few things...heartfelt things, but in a certain tone... and I thought,
"I've been here before,"
and I realized, as he told me he wasn't "going anywhere," that my ex husband had said the SAME.EXACT.THING. almost 7 years to the day before.
Within 24 hours, he was gone.
Logically, I know that Lawn Boy is NOT my ex, but in that moment, I wasn't capable of believing him, because I was in a room, 7 years before, listening to the man to whom I had pledged to love until "death do us part," who'd told me the night before that he would never leave, back his car out of the driveway.
He never came back.