In fact, when I saw all the "define 2013 in one word" posts, it seemed more than I could possibly handle. I thought, that would be cool, but I just don't have the time to sit down and narrow my year into a one-word goal.
Then I got my prompt email from Mama Kat and I saw it... one word... ACCEPTANCE... and I sort of breathed a little sigh.
Immediately I was reminded of a conversation I had at the end of last week. At the time, I felt like the world was falling in on my head. I was lamenting to Lawn Boy that my mother would just NOT forgive me for losing a $200 check on which she had left the TO line BLANK. This was all happening the day after I realized that my credit card was not lost somewhere in the house, but in fact had been stolen, to the tune of $700 in charges, when I must have dropped it somewhere while buying myself some much deserved ice cream the day after my grandmother died. LB said to me, "If there is one thing I've learned this last year, it's to give yourself GRACE in times of stress."
There it is.
Acceptance and Grace
Have you looked them up? Acceptance means a favorable reception, approval; favor. Grace means favor or goodwill; mercy or clemency.
Two things I rarely give myself. In truth, sometimes I'm not so good at giving them to others either.
The message am hearing in all this is that I need to forgive myself and cut myself some slack. Slow down and take baby steps. Get things back in order, so that when the big bucket of sweaters tips off the shelf in my closet so that I can't get into it or shut the door, it is neither the straw the breaks the camel's back, nor the end of the world.
I'm working on it.
Guess what I found this morning while tearing through my house looking for the $10 off Happy Holidays grocery coupon I needed to place my order? The check from my mom! Eventually I found the coupon too!