Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Some Years

Some years I am sad to say goodbye to my class.

Because they are sweet and eager to learn and they think the sun rises and sets in me.

Because we've bonded and made special memories and I am sorry to see them go.

This was not one of those years.

This was a long year in which my class never really bonded and gelled.

They argued, they bickered, they talked and no theory, chart, nor book I read provided a successful solution.

Don't get me wrong, I had a handful of really sweet kids whom I will miss.

And another handful who were really~ and I mean really~ bright. The kind that are a challenge to teach, but in a good way.

And one in particular, who was an absolute pill to teach, but whom I truly enjoyed as a person and would have taken home with me in a flash.

But these children were not the leaders in my class.

The leaders were the tough kids, the ones that walk by a desk and drop a sly comment to the kid they know will be set off.

The ones that push and push looking for you to give them an opening so they can scream and yell, either at you or just at the class at large.

The kind that refuse to work quietly or join the rest of the class in line just so they can get everyone in trouble.

And the good kids were just not strong enough to carry the rest of the class.

This year, I could not get them out of the classroom fast enough.

And I am cleaning and organizing and getting the room ready with a verve and vigor I haven't had in awhile.

Because I am ready for a new class...

a change...

a fresh start in August.

And praying for a MUCH better year!



Angelwithatwist said...

It really is sad when a teacher has such a rough year.. here is hoping next year is much better hun

The Dose of Reality said...

I cannot imagine how hard that must be as a teacher to know that there are good kids, but not to be able to have them step up and outweigh the ones who are not. UGH. Hope you have a very relaxing summer! You have earned it! :)-Ashley

Tracie Nall said...

There is no way I could be a teacher. It is such a tough job. I'm sorry you had a not-great year. Hopefully next year will will bring an awesome class.

Stacey @ Chasing Cloud 9 said...

As the parent of a kid teachers constantly praise, and a kid teachers often tell me is quite a challenge...I feel for you! I hope you get a wonderful class this coming year!

Jennifer said...

I can't imagine how hard that must be. Here's to hoping next year is much, MUCH better.

Leah said...

Sounds like you are ready for a well deserved summer! Who knows...maybe you will have touched one of those challenging kids in ways you just never know. There might have been a reason why they were in your class:)

Leigh Powell Hines said...

That sounds hard. I need to talk to you about middle schools. I've got a lot of years ahead of me, but need some inside info.

Maureen Hitipeuw said...

Wow I can't imagine being a teacher so I always have huge respects for them, yourself included. Hope you will have a wonderful relaxing summer :)

Andrea B. said...

Oh, geez. Jeez Louise.

That stinks. I didn't realize your year was so rough, girl. I'm sorry for the good kids, for you, and I feel sad for the tough ones, that they didn't let you get through to them. (hugs) And yay for summer!

And let's get together soon!

Mimi B said...

Wow, that really stinks! Sorry to hear it was such a crappy year. The last half of the year with my boys has been terrible for my youngest with this move. Took them 6 mos to test an approve him for the gifted program. We started school the first day after Christmas break and he got his acceptance letter 5 days ago. School got out Friday. So many ways this school is an utter "fail" for my son. Oh my...I could write a blog post! lol

Cyndy Bush said...

Praying right there with you. I know I could NEVER do what you do, and you have my utmost respect!

Shell said...

You deserve a better year next year!

One year, when I had three blocks of kids- I adored one block, one was okay, and the other- yeah, I was glad that year was over!